Should I Start Over?

Everything that I've been afraid of, has come. The day we last met. I don't know if I should be happy or otherwise. I really have no right to tell you what to do. The path that you chose, I believe that's what you want & no matter how much I deny it, it's real which is undeniable. You may have never thought how it feels to walk on my shoes, to be in my position, but I had thought of how much you were hurting because of her. I still remember it clearly that the real pain started at that time. I stood by you when you only looked at her, kept insisting till you said it for like a million times that you liked her, and you wanted her. I stood by you for so long. Before you got close to her, before you got further from me.

Now, there's nothing that I can expect from you. Not even an "I miss you" or an "I'll come back, just wait." All I want is you, to be happy. It's okay for me that you're not by my side but you would never believe me that, it hurts me even more to see you sad. It's like half of myself is being destroyed. Never thought that I'd really come this far, until the end. I thought it would last for just 6 months, but I do keep my promise that I would be here till the end, right? I said, I would see you standing happy when everything has been settled, didn't I? I don't even break that promise until this time. I really did, I saw you smiling yesterday with a big smile on your face, which symbolized your true happiness. I couldn't help myself that it didn't make me forget you but made me fall for you harder. Yes, that smile. That pretty, gorgeous smile on your face.

Right now that you're just going to start a new chapter in your life, I should do the same thing too. I will have a life without any kind of our memories that haunt me, without the thought of you that keeps following me around, without the painful pain that kills me. I will have that kind of life. No matter how much time will it take, how painful it would be to keep going forward, how much tears that will fall down from my eyes, I believe that time will heal everything. That no matter how much it takes to get there, I'll risk everything.


p.s : the, that right now I really have nothing to say but I really wish you a new, a very beautiful journey ahead. without the feeling of being forgotten, the thought of being replaced, the fear that haunts you. I wish you a succeed and a better future. we'll meet again soon, right? by the way, I love you still.

promise me that you won't forget me?