Vin —

It's hard without you. It is empty and silent, much worse than I expected.

I haven't adjusted to going through days without you. I miss how you never missed asking me "how was today?" I miss waking up to your good morning texts, which as long as I remember, were the only good thing to start my day right. I miss being upset because you were always the one who fell asleep first when I still wanted to talk to you all night. 

I miss you being all bubbly about funny TikTok Videos. I miss you being stubborn for insisting on driving all the way from SCBD to Depok at night to pay me a visit to the hospital when I clearly told you there was no need to. I miss catching you being sleepy during our call and how you sugarcoated that you were not (was funny though). I miss you saying get well soon all the time as I ranted so much about my work. I miss you validating how tired I was every day and never once judged me for it.

God, I wrote everything in the past tense, making me realize that Vin — we are really over. Still, I miss you. 

p.s: seems like we would not get the chance to watch that Winnie the Pooh at the end, would us? anyway, good night, Vin. do not let the bed bugs bite. xx