thank you ☺

I can say that these past few weeks have been perfectly hard. I know that's all my mistake for keeping this feeling in my heart, for not letting you know about this, for being so selfish. I've known that since the first time I met you, I can never control this feeling and it would be this hard to love you but I've been ready for that. That's why I choose to keep this feeling in my heart, and the second reason is i know, you love her and if I told you how much I love you, you'll feel burdened. Maybe.
I've been thinking about this lately while I'm depressed "if I really mean nothing to you, why should I keep holding onto you?"

What hurts me to the fullest is until you have no idea how much I've always wanted you to stay and say "can you just stay here for a little bit longer?"

Does she love you better than I do? Does she care about you better than I've ever done? Is she willing enough to wait for you and getting hurt over and over again? I know, she's much good-looking than me, smarter than me, taller than me but she can never love you better than I've ever done, I mean better than I do.

I can see the way you look at me. I'm not that special. I can feel the way you call my name. No, you don't call it with love. I can hear the way you talk and you don't mean it. Okay, but it's not problem at all. I'm getting used to it. Is it the time that I should say "goodbye?"

p.s: i wish you take my hand and say "don't worry. i may be leaving, but my heart stays."