If Only You Knew, Would You Care?

"He won't care"
"It will be useless if you told him how do you feel about him"
"You're nothing to him"
Those words have been running trough my mind lately. I know that how much I struggle to tell you how much I love you, it will be useless.
I've always been trying to let all of these things go but yeah it hurts like hell and you're always the one that make me feel  unable to let all these things go.
What matters now is the way I control my feelings. If this always happens every single day, I don't know what would I be. Gosh help me.
They. I mean, that girl. She always makes me jealous of herself. No, I don't hate her. Not at all and yes, she has nothing to do with me unless she hurts you.
Today aka your day. I can't say anything besides putting your name in every line of my prayer. May your day, starting today will always be a good year, a blessed year and may your day will always filled by happiness ahead.

I'm with you, although I don't have tons of chances to be with you.
I'm praying for you, although you don't even care.
I'm still in love with you, although you always make me as a broken-hearted girl.
I still cry for you, fall for you and care for you without your request.

p.s: may God bless you in every step you take. I wish you all the best.

-your secret admirer xx